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Sigh…………the exams and some other stupid stuff lah……
Well, today was kin of interesting cause I got a little “rattling at” this afternoon, not that I am mad or anything but it just makes me confused about some stuff in life. Everyone have this different preference for whether you want the truth or you want to be told a lie. Well, I am the one who always strive for the truth even if I now that it will hurt but I kind of think of it as it’s better to know the truth and most importantly know it now then to live in a made up facade till it just breaks into your world like a burglar.
For e first time, as far as I can remember(I don’t kind of really remember stuff well), this should be the first time the friend of mine rattle her head off at me for feeling some in just done to her by me in the 1 year plus of what I would call ‘regular’ friends. Well, some of her comments don’t know if she really meant it (think she does), was kind of not very nice sounding and her voice did get a little noticeable for a quiet place like the airport. I am in not part embarrass or mad at her rattling for you must know that I am a person kind slow to anger or embarrassment that I am surprised by it myself at times. Part of me actually do wish that she will rattle some more. At least when she rattles off, she sounds more affirmed about herself though I would say that some of her stuffs her really stupid illogical statement but on the whole it sounds good if you don’t pay close attention. Well, the funny thing is that I was not the initial cause of her bad mood today but after that it came to me. I know that it is some dissatisfaction she is feeling about me but was it really only the dissatisfaction? Maybe, only she knows. Well, initially she was mad at some friend who made her feel cheated. Man….grow up will you. It is totally so typical of her to severe her friendship with some people because of this and that minor things you know. Totally childish in nature! Only kids go “I don’t want to friend you anymore” thingy you know. Her reasons were often weak and because of some small incidents which she magnifies it and then she want to end a friendship. Grow up and be mature will you? People of our age should already understand and practice the fact that friendship means more stuff, it really takes something severely wrong and mega then people end their friendship. Sometimes, from the way she describes things, it’s good that we are not more than just regular friends. I shall not elaborate further as it is quite obvious what the next line will be.
It’s just totally frustrating sometimes when you see your reasoning as being so obvious and logical and you just don’t know why another can’t accept it. Then there is this thing that we all try our very best to embrace 仁者见仁，智者见智 you just can’t see eye to eye and that’s it, it’s just that simple. You can try to convince the person till doomsday but if it can’t be understood, then forget it, don’t try! But trust me again, a lot of people will try till they get into a fight etc then they will get it.
Well, was at the airport to study then went to the US education fair at Pan Pacific hotel but there wasn’t much but an enjoyable conversation or two. Then at the airport, there was this very short period of time that my friends were talking about China this and that, mainly Beijing, as they were tourist there before, and man…it really didn’t feel quite good. Miss my boyfriend more….. :(
